Aziz’s blog

 Today we advanced in the question for the poem

 Well the only thing that comes to my mind is to ask my Dad why he wanted me to come to America in the first place like I was doing good in Africa I had no problems I really didn’t know why he wanted me to come here I don’t even speak English that much so I was kind of forced to learn things pretty quickly here when people are talking to me in English I try to translate it in French in my head then I respond  I wish I asked him why he wanted me to come here 

 When I came to America for the first time in like August I knew that a new adventure awaited me and I was kind of curious.But for me the real change started when I went for the first time at lakeside high school I saw different types of cultures different types of languages etc. Right there I knew that a new adventure started so I just went with the low of things I’m still adapting to the new system and everything but all in all I am good 

 Back in Africa my school was too small like everyone know each other one way or another it was kind of like a colony . The classrooms where small the parking lot was small even the cafeteria was small . People where always bumping into each other in the hallways I didn’t even like going to that school even the counselors office was small it was like a little shrieks shack kinda of creepy to be honest 

 I think that the only thing that doesn’t get better is my grandpa’s health ever since 2019 he is really sick he has like diabetes I don’t even know if when I come back he will be diseased I am very about it but when we are talking together on the phone he seems fine to me but well we never know in life we just have to wait and see

 Originally I planned to stay in Africa but well in life there is always changes new adventures and new people to encounter. Sometimes you just have to get out of your comfort zone I guess. I planned to stay in Africa continu school there with all my friends but I came here to find new adventures. I didn’t plan this but life is a  rollercoster and you just have to go with the flow  

 I forgot about a lot of people in my child especially about  kids I knew in kindergarten my memory is a little bit blurry but I remember this one guy he was my best friend we did everything thing together but I changed schools and I never saw him again after years I forgot about him even till this day I wonder if he is doing week because he was quit outgoing but also shy when he doesn’t know the person all and all I hope he is doing well 

 When my friends are doing things that are dangerous like cutting up in traffics they think that it is fun but that is just playing with some other persons life  Playing with ones life is no laughing matter I don’t get it how people can be having fun when doing things like that one wrong move and you can easily die  You can have fun different ways than risking your life like when one goes to party’s it is written nowhere that if you drink or smoke at a party you will have more fun like for me people who smoke are just dumb if you think about it literally you are basically paying to die faster 

 I am certain that being shy in our life will not help you in any kind of way . someone that is shy can’t have friends is not outgoing nothing he just in his own realm of thinking I’m not saying being shy isn’t good but if you want to have some relationships with another person being shy will not help you in anyway people tend to usually like outgoing people  I am certain that over 90% of the world would prefer being with someone outgoing than shy shyness is just your mind thinking too much about stuff that don’t really matter like if I do this are they going to like me if I say another thing will they view me as a different person  Shyness is a thing that we can overcome we just need to communicate 

 I am thankful for you being here for me trough thick and fin you always had my back you always believed in me I am very thankful for that  I want you to know that your kindness has not gone unnoticed or unappreciated i am filled with gratitude for your generosity your friendship and your love I’m very lucky to have you by my side  and I will always remember.  the moments we spend together  Thank you for always being by my side and I hope it will continue 

 I don’t really have something to be apologizing for but I am sorry If my words hurt you in one way or another I am sorry if my way of living doesn’t please you I am not perfect just bare with me 

 It has to be swimming I can’t even remember the last time I swam it has to be many years now I am not a fan of going into some water where someone could have peed in it our even farted . Back when I was kid I used to swim all the time I even won a tournament . But now i can’t even remember the basics like floating . To tell the truth i think that i am never going to swim again I can’t risk drowning and die easily like that 

 I would say it was my childhood like I remember important stuff but not in full detail like my 10 birthday I just remember I turned 10 that day nothing else memory is kind of blurry you don’t remember the little a stuff but when it mark you deeply like the dear of someone you will remember but if it is the day to day routine not much 

One time I went out without telling my parents and I taught my luck would have helped me that day but no  It was night time I snuck out without telling anyone I went to see my friends and we played all night but at one moment my phone was ringing and I saw that my dad was calling me I was so scared I didn’t even had the willpower to respond to him and then my brother called me and he told me that he knows that I snuck out  He told me to come back home so I did what he asked me I went back home my father and my mother we’re worried about me and they were mad but they didn’t really express it they told me that when I go out just to tell them where I am going and it was kind of it 

 I think that I have too much luck in my life like I never get in trouble even if I am the cause of the problem I always find a way to get out of it without having consequences but I know that one day my luck is going to run out so I just go with the flow for now not doing anything crazy and stuff 

 There are a lot of things I can’t deny like chocolate is better than vanilla bmw has a better car conception than Mercedes but there is one in particular that comes to my mind for me it is even a fact that money brings happiness  People think that you can have all the money in the world but happiness can’t be bought .I don’t really care about those types of arguments for me if I have money I am automatically happy . Money is happiness it’s kind of a slogan for me something that motivates me to be better 

For me it has to be cars .Like who doesn’t like cars ? My obsession for cars started I think when is was 6 my dad bought me a miniature car for my birthday ever since that day I liked cars bmw’s in general I would pick a bmw over any other car brand Mercedes Audi Bugatti Porsche Maserati ANYTHING. But when I grew older I just realized a car is a car if it takes you to a point A to a point B it is done it doesn’t matter if it is a luxury car like rolls Royce or even Brabus the important thing is that it helps you with movement 

 It was the birth of my niece . One day my dad called me he said to go the hospital and stay with my big sister there because she was about to give birth . So I went but I didn’t really see the moment when my niece came into this world but I was just waiting so after some time they showed me the baby she was beautiful she looked like my mother 

 It was one time at a wedding when I was still a kid everybody was wearing casually to respect the bride and the groom but I was wearing a shirt and a tank top I taught it was not a big deal but when I went to the weeding people looked at me like I was different and i rapidly knew that I wasn’t dressed appropriately for the occasion I felt embarrassed but I couldn’t change myself because we were already at the weeding so I went with the flow and stayed out of site as possible